..To deal with what it is we call "Being Christians"...

This appears to be quite the challenge because I look around and people get offended whichever way this topic goes. Oh well , I could care less since it's just my opinion and I believe I can share it. Thanks for reading if you do and feel free to comment..... Here I go :
                             
                  We live in a world where all we see is the world; empty, sad, sinful preoccupied and worried about all the materials surrounding us. Christians in this world dwell in it and completely forget why they are, why we are. I mean surely we are humans but we all know we don't belong here and just traveling on this train that is life.
Being Christians is not about which denomination you belong to , to which pastor, priest,leader or authority you go to or respond to(which in all cases should be in accord with God through Christ) nor the *church* you attend.


                   Let's see here talking about *church* : I'm sure for most of us it's a place or building or structure (however you wanna call it) where we go and worship God, honestly, yes but it's not all. Church is the coming together of people to praise and worship God in truth and in spirit and that is the CHURCH. 


We are the church not the building !!! 
        The bride of Christ for whom He died on the cross, sacred wood on which He bled His precious blood so that we could get a second chance at this we call Life , this journey back home where we all belong. This life where we are given a chance to make things right for t=others at all times and in all we do; whether it be in silence, from within, in sadness or joy . Really it doesn't matter which mood you are in but please don't keep a smile from the other that could save his life. We get to breathe another day when some don't.
We walk here looking at the differences, yeah yeah differences here , differences there. What's the point ? Why not similarities ? Yes that's a word i'd like to see more often. Are similarities so bad that we can't address them and be made whole again ? Will Christ's bride ever be made whole ?


                People are always talking about this idea of the soul-mate the perfect other to complete them and at first, I honestly considered it then along the way saw the flaw in the process. So why don't we work at being a whole body, a whole person ? I believe that being a complete piece of Art, you are more useful in your totality and can do more and accomplish greater things than before and only then you could be (re-)united to the other one, the missing rib. It's better to be whole than being  part of a puzzle. Christ is sitting at the right hand of God our Daddy and He is whole, then why can't His bride just try to be made whole as well and while waiting for His return ? God loves us like crazy.


YES !! God LOVES ... Really ? "LOVE" 
This is a word that is misused day in and day out when we let it slip out of our lips without ever understanding its power. We can always try to describe LOVE in our realm without ever getting close to what it means. Let's take a little journey in history avoiding too many details.
                    So LOVE gave us a prostitute who hid the messengers sent by the Most High to announce the good news, then she heard the news and was transformed from within and outward. Interestingly enough, down the line she married a king named Solomon and in all this insane lineage we got Mary. Oh yes Mary the mother of LOVE, her son JESUS...
LOVE lived amongst us and preached, and grew in wisdom. He walked the earth, walked on water , was on top of the world, spent forty days in the desert, fed thousands. Also along the way healed the sick and wounded, the helpless, gave hope to the hopeless, the blind saw and the mute talked and the deaf heard and they all saw His glory. 
            It's sad how many rejected LOVE,yet GOD is LOVE


We are not blind,neither mute nor deaf and we still can't see anything(His glory) simply because it appear to be that which we call "love" is far from the reality. We love with our eyes while we should be loving with our heart and soul....
          Being human is all we do yet we are just visitors waiting for the train to take us home into Our Father's arms, on this journey we should work at Being Christians.

I have tried again and again

I have tried again and again
to survive the pain
but sleep won't come rescue me
here i lay face to the ceiling
eyes shut pretending not to see
all those pieces slowly falling ,,,,,,,,,,

once again i let myself believe that my life on its own could be w/o you, when i left emptiness picked me up ...

Here i am losing it inside trying to keep outside sane and calm ,when all the war in my soul tears me down
to the ground. Hard and cold bringin shivers my bones cracking to the pressure. I can't escape this is a nightmare might as well
taking it all the way ,so where is the rush why is my heart beating slowly ..
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OH well....

Oh well... The weekend had to come to an end. It was a very interesting one not much eventful but good. I spent some time with my friend Mary at a recreational park in Chikhasha. Oh and also i finally got to see my cousin in Ada i haven't seen in years. He got two beautiful kids and doing well. I have to admit that me bein busy with music and school didn't give me much time to hang out with him. For now i'm out of here, i'll just go on and get things taken care. Thanks be to God for another beautiful day :)

Oh hmm.. Ok !!!

I realized that i write a bunch of little notes and somewhat of poems . So I just thought for a minute I can post them here on my blog and at least they won't feel as lonely as they are right now in my little notebook  two third full of writings . We'll see how that goes in a little bit...

...For FREEDOM...

         There they go fighting for their freedom ,that, which is truly seldom in its utmost nature,

      Why do we cry ? Why do you suffer ?

Is it that we wish to ? 

In our hearts and souls it lurks like a monster waiting for its prey, 

our hopes growing to get away from this , this frustration we fear in the beings we are , 

Are we guilty ? Of what ?..... Really ? 

To say the least of all , at first it may seem like a grain of sand but oh please , please look at it , we strayed to far away and fell into forgetfulness......

      Your life freely you gave , but were you free ? 

        Our sins ,our burdens on you rested , all the way....

 Now on our heads fall the grief of our enemies ,at Your feet we crawl , have mercy in this time where we lost our path, then the question echoed inside ? " Did you really forget me or just believed you could be without ME ?" 

     To my despair the answer is within, lying in the darkness and loneliness, stealth , breath, it feels like death .... 

     Why do we cry ? Why do we suffer when we believed we could be without You... The reality is always striking the wise man but will it reach the ignorant in time to save him from the cliff ahead ? 

   Why looking at the ground when all that you need to pursue freedom, freedom that which is very seldom in its utmost nature has been set upon you entrusted to you from ages. 

    

The WORD will set you free. 

Which word ? 

                Really ? 

                         Must you ask this question ?

      But i guess we are all, in time , asking this question and It's sad but true, unfailing truth . 

You come again and again when we reject You as before , afraid of being hurt ... 

                Afraid of what ? What is it ? Fear ? hmmm... 

Then arm yourself with courage for the spirit will guide you in battle because you gave part of your freedom to the evil one ..... He will abuse with your own words, enslave you without tomorrow to be seen nor hope to grow...and shine a light on you ....

     There they go again fighting this fight for their freedom freedom that which, I hope , We hope , in You , one WORD, Holy WORD to obtain..... 

...Struggle...

What can you hold ?
If all you can do is fold.
Fold to the throbbing pain in the chest
As she walked out the door, all the memories floating
just dropped like stones, in the river of love in our souls making splashes and now resting at to the deep bottom..
hmmmm...You'd think life couldn't get any worse ?

Believe me it could go both ways...

There are always choices, 

It's funny, never easy ones..... but there is no time to think for a second, to stop and breathe in for a minute , ponder an hour away before it happens and then it's done ...We choose away things we wish would work....

When I said History repeats itself ,she said that it doesn't have to be and you can change History....
Then I sat and wondered ...If we could do so then why do we always fail to do it ?

I find myself in the same predicament mostly and then all crumbles and crashes...but what to keep and what is to let go before it's too late ?
And that's quite hard to do at times and I guess I'm kinda stubborn at times as well.
Really ? History is gone it's in the past even what is to come is still a dream, and what we call the present is just a big illusion of a certain reality and it still stands in front of us poking our hearts. Everything happens now and I believe that's when all matters.

You don't usually wish for things to go the way they went but they did and there is no turning back at all so you can just hold on to what you got now and at that very moment, Patience is of the utmost necessity for you not to lose your mind for there is a greater Being watching over you and you better wish and hope for the best in the end since He holds everything you could ever dream off or imagine.

I know all that, yet............... it feels like no matter how hard I try to do my best and let Him do the rest I even fail at that as well. It has never been about me and for sure will never be but why the wondering about what I should do with this blessed gift ?
What is to be offered to this world I live in ?

Surely when seasons come to an end letting go is necessary but it's the hardest thing to do for some of us,
For our human nature is really not working that way...
     I heard that it might open another door, probably YES......... but what happens when what you are holding to is what you want ? Do you hold it until God decides that you need it ? Or do you just let it go and hope and pray for the best ? .......NOW will determine what happens THEN... But still we  struggle