I have tried again and again

I have tried again and again
to survive the pain
but sleep won't come rescue me
here i lay face to the ceiling
eyes shut pretending not to see
all those pieces slowly falling ,,,,,,,,,,

once again i let myself believe that my life on its own could be w/o you, when i left emptiness picked me up ...

Here i am losing it inside trying to keep outside sane and calm ,when all the war in my soul tears me down
to the ground. Hard and cold bringin shivers my bones cracking to the pressure. I can't escape this is a nightmare might as well
taking it all the way ,so where is the rush why is my heart beating slowly ..
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OH well....

Oh well... The weekend had to come to an end. It was a very interesting one not much eventful but good. I spent some time with my friend Mary at a recreational park in Chikhasha. Oh and also i finally got to see my cousin in Ada i haven't seen in years. He got two beautiful kids and doing well. I have to admit that me bein busy with music and school didn't give me much time to hang out with him. For now i'm out of here, i'll just go on and get things taken care. Thanks be to God for another beautiful day :)

Oh hmm.. Ok !!!

I realized that i write a bunch of little notes and somewhat of poems . So I just thought for a minute I can post them here on my blog and at least they won't feel as lonely as they are right now in my little notebook  two third full of writings . We'll see how that goes in a little bit...