...As students....

            I'm a student...of the world,
                       Into his own world,
Walking on this land
     Where at some point we all stand
       Still like pictures taken yesterday
                           as we were to lay
       In the wake of another day,
Wondering what will become of me,
                 I go day after day
           Not loving enough the other
                      And living like any other.  
              A blind man of the world


                                I'm a student....in the world,
                                                                          With many others like me,
                                                             But not quite as I....me,
                                                                                      I'm from here and there
                                                               Just like anybody else,not near nor far
                                          I'm like a ghost,
                                                      A host not always seen
                                                                 Nor have I been
                                                  Where I was to be
                                          I'm a student,learning
                                            Walking in life
                                              Hoping to do all that is right
                                                 Finding his way just like all of us
                                       You've been there before with the struggles and tribulations
                          But look, as long as there is a sun shining
                        There will always a reason for smiling
                   As one of those stars reflecting the love from the sun on a dark painted sky, a fine time to be thankful for the life we get to have ..... Don't hold on too tight to it, but surely in this fickle world, you might want to do so,for it tickles you being and excites its willingness to dwell in the passing pleasures of this life.
       I, several times, have failed to live as I should and lived as I could away from You and me as well and made mistakes that filled the world with sadness instead of Joy and failed You...in the world

                      
                               I'm a student..... out of the world
                aspiring to heavenly goodness and perfection but yet so weak and hopeful that someday by some gracious graceful act of kindness and love ,My wonderful Maker will care to call me up to Him for a meeting awaited and wanted. For sure we will all somehow and certainly all get there at certain point in time that we know not. So there is really no rush about it.

                                           No matter how fast we run , we'll all get to that point when the time will be just right in order to go ...out of the world with all that we've learned from others as from this world and the other...
                                                                                                     as students

...On a journey to M.U.S.I.C.....

             They say dancers are just dancers , people , artists. In them I see all of us , they are like us but a bit more. They do something we wish we could .
            
                       You see music is this thing that gets you Moving , inside and out when u hear it , when u see it , when you feel it..... And if music had a body it would be one of a dancer , look how he/she flows in the space giving shape to the air we breathe in and out with such ease as if it was to be taken for granted. The way I see it, we are all gifts to each other fallen from heaven to bring light in the other dark days and dance is one of those gifts, a delicacy from heaven with its music so deep and true. And When i see them move across the floor playing their beautiful music in such a Unique way with such grace and determination it makes my soul quiver with so much joy and excitement, they communicate this message saying " this is my passion and it's a pleasure to share it with you. Would you please accept this gift ? ".
              
             Without ever saying a word , you can hear them breathing the rhythm in and out, for their hearts are full and overflowing and their Souls screaming with creativity running down their skins like the result of all the effort given to their passion. I love how they are percussionists using their whole body to produce a wonderful piece. :) and it's true you guys are great percussionists you probably don't think so but you make the music as well, when you breathe, slide here and there..You could dance but could make music by just moving across the floor ? (maybe) Not really!!! I personally don't think i could portray enough and carry with as much weight as they do. these amazing people walking around the world just like us , but with a passion like no one , to move mountains.
                
                We all walk In Circles heading to different places, different paths and a good friend of mine said that " seldom the road we travel on is the road we want " ...In their case they chose this road and no matter how hard it gets, they will keep walking......


                To you dancers , to your glorious journey to make our lives a little more brighter day by day thank you for Moving Unique Souls In Circles ....

...About our choices.....

                                                                         OK ! I guess I have to say
                                               It's a brand new day   
                Got to breath, live it up,  catch up                            
     The past is gone never to be owned
   The future is to line up, figure out
  What u gonna do ?
   Make it beautiful or
         Let the world make it painful ?

 Give it a chance to be
To breath and allow it to be
Why do we feel the need
To allow the heart
To be touched and bleed
While we mess it up
 For the most part
  Then hope and pray to make up
    For the wounds,

      No more bliss
        Not even a kiss
           For all we miss

                We think we rule the world
                   When we can't even rule our world

                         As we all know everything comes to an end
                           All the beautiful time we spend
                               Together, all the joy we shared
                                  You made my day and I laughed

                                              Remember when we took a walk
                                                You could feel the breeze in your hair
                                                   In the park we sat to talk
                                                     Oh how good it was to breath in the fresh air
                                                        And happy we were because we chose                                                                                   happiness,
                                                                             For the joy of its fullness
                                                                               And the way we lived was all about our choices

........Tell a story....

            So they say "Time tells a story."
          One about the history
       Of those who took a chance
     On this journey and in their stance,
         Strong they looked so tall they stood
           All you could see was the happy mood.

                        By grace only they could live
                     Hoping always in what they believe
                                               Whether or not they knew
                                                                 No matter how the time flew
                                                                                        The day will come to leave
                                                                             So fast, the days were gone
                                                           And the break of dawn
                                                 On us shows its face
                                                         Oh how I love its embrace
                          There comes another day
                                              For us to be free, anew
      For this I will pray and stay
         As strong as you strenghten me .....
                                                                           I, me , away from you, blind to see
                                                         But still walking, looking up
                                                                                                  In the blue sky, Memories from the past
                                                Showing me that I don't measure up
                                                                              To your amazing love, so vast
                     But I will stand by you and wait ...................
                                                                                     

....................As long as Time tells a story...

Time will tell.......

            Today was open to awesomeness with no worries nor overwhelming feeling but  when I saw her face as she walked in, my heart dropped from 24 stories high all the way down to the bottomless bottom. My body in reaction to that started shaking as a leaf in the wind, not of fear but of something certainly greater that I can't even explain.

            She didn't lay eyes on me, the yellow and green eyes wondered around the room claiming my invisibility,while mine were trying to catch a glimpse of them and her beautiful face. As I was sitting there, talking, laughing(trying) with friends of ours, she joined , sat and turned her back away for a little while and carried on her conversation then with all the grace in her body reached out and hugged her friend and kept going. Their conversation was very enthusiastic filled with laughter, giggles and blushes. I couldn't act as if her voice was inaudible like the melodies of my past haunting me from time to time, nor pretend not to feel her presence, for there was no pretense for me to hide in. No matter what, my presence went unnoticed while I was just sitting across the table..ha ha

                     I, every time she would care to let her charming voice be heard, had my eyes set on her. I, who mistakenly either from fear or God (only) knows what, lied to myself and held those feelings which caught up to me hitting so hard, taking me off my feet into the deep and quite confusing spiral of love.

                       Is it so or am I dreaming a never ending dream ? Please is it me, did I wait too long ? I wanna wake up then, please wake me up...      You know what ? Maybe I didn't wait too long since "everything happens for a reason" , I won't kill myself  trying to pull things apart and make sense out of this mess or figure out the puzzle. 

                      She was ready to leave, stood there looked at me and waved goodbye while smiling an unusual smile quite different than the one which grew out of our summer days. She walked away and left. With her, she took all the memories that I have to let go and in me the feelings are still growing. Feelings she pushes away nor allow to rest in peace in their bed of lyrical prose from my soul unto those sheets, with black and white lines  like a prisoner suit, bringing freedom to my being.

       I'm only a human , a simple man who wished he was more but is not. To my Maker, who holds all things and knows all, I might be more than I see myself, more than I was, growing closer to Him, and whether or not by His grace I get to find her, I will still enjoy my everyday for it's a gift to be alive at this time, in this land where awesomeness is upon us... :)

  

                        As long as I get to breathe in and out and my heart plays its beautiful music, I will rejoice and be happy .....only Time will tell...... 

Something to think about ?

" This man chose loneliness and called it Freedom" ..LD

         I was listening to my music as usual :) and there was a line in the song that said "This man chose loneliness and called it Freedom.." and it hit me and got me wondering. So what is it really ? I don't claim to be anything but just me expressing myself in my own words, the best I can :)
         
         Being alone is something that you and I have all experienced at one point in time, so we can all relate to it. To a certain extent I enjoyed it but it can only last for so long when there is no one to lean on when it gets really rocky and looking down, the dirt seems to never end. You then wish you had one of those angels dropped in your life like droplets of clear and refreshing rain :).
Friends for me are a blessing sent your way for a defined purpose still not revealed nor expressed (openly) but , which fulfillment is certain. We might not see it right away (probably way down the path) but it initiates that inner change, that evolution within from what you are to something great, better yet, closer to what you are meant to be. For sure I need time to myself to reflect on this beautiful life and reconnect with myself and it also has a time frame :).

        Freedom to me, it's to have peace in my heart when at night, I lay when there is no more light. Everything you give to the world is an overflow of the happenings in your heart. There are several level of freedom going from financial to psychological and the extent of that freedom is totally up to us. As they say "Your freedom stops where your neighbor's start. "
We all need our space, true. You have friends close to your heart and the time will come for them to fly away while you are still trying to hold to those thoughts you've shared and cherished. Freedom for me will come from letting go of those thoughts and of those friends as well in the process. Their season in your life has passed so either they will stay around for later on or they will be gone forever.
       You can't really claim loneliness at that point because when leaving you, they give you room for improvement and it makes me think of  a "work out"(workout). So when you are working out you put your body through training and tests and at the end you have muscle soreness. I believe it is caused by lacerations in the muscle tissues which requires rest for a better recovery and then you will get results in growth of muscle mass. yay!!!
When people leave it feels the same way and recovery is needed, I hope the analogy makes sense. During that stage you  will keep walking but at the end your heart grows with more love to give but no one to receive it that's when loneliness hits you. Truth is, we all know that it hurts....
  
          For me, growing up with a lot of people around me, I've learned to give and love others wholly without pretense so being alone can be challenging (not talking about romantic relationships but in general). When it comes to freedom, I believe to be free at most levels( but financial) and I enjoy life :). I let my freedom sometimes be impaired by my surroundings and loneliness kick me down. It is unhealthy for sure because of the stress it makes you put on yourself for no reason......Let it go ..haha !!!
 I say this but I do have trouble applying it, YES I admit, not to perfection nor to greatness but, to being a piece of Art in the process of being perfected. I'm still growing and it's not easy at all.
           That being said, I believe that loneliness is not freedom but just a step towards it. What you do with it determines what tomorrow holds for you. I know some people who chose loneliness and call it freedom and that's not really good because I'm sure in the original design we were not meant to be alone but to share ourselves with the world and bring joy one act of random kindness and love at a time.
Freedom is not about being out of prison, being able to do whatever you want or not taking orders, I believe it's a state of mind connected to a loving heart holding who we are, defining our being (but not necessarily the "real" us since people can be fake).
        
          Being free it's being yourself in your entirety whether you open up to others or hold back is up to you.
To me, it's not allowing yourself to be controlled nor influenced by others, and the fact is that your freedom is in your hands so........
                                 It is all up to you, you can make life beautiful or
                                                          let the world make it painful :)
                                                                                                                                            Julien

Here I am :)

       After a lot of thinking (which doesn't really help some times) I finally created this page. I'm not scientist ,no doctor or anything else. Just a regular guy, living life day by day believing that each day comes with its giant load of worries and struggles. So why bother carrying all these worries into the next day ?

Hmmmm... I wonder... And honestly we all do that :) . I mean you get *another* day :) so there you go , have a fresh start it doesn't have to be perfect but get the best out of it and enjoy it for what it's worth :)