Wednesday, November 17, 2010

" This man chose loneliness and called it Freedom" ..LD

         I was listening to my music as usual :) and there was a line in the song that said "This man chose loneliness and called it Freedom.." and it hit me and got me wondering. So what is it really ? I don't claim to be anything but just me expressing myself in my own words, the best I can :)
         
         Being alone is something that you and I have all experienced at one point in time, so we can all relate to it. To a certain extent I enjoyed it but it can only last for so long when there is no one to lean on when it gets really rocky and looking down, the dirt seems to never end. You then wish you had one of those angels dropped in your life like droplets of clear and refreshing rain :).
Friends for me are a blessing sent your way for a defined purpose still not revealed nor expressed (openly) but , which fulfillment is certain. We might not see it right away (probably way down the path) but it initiates that inner change, that evolution within from what you are to something great, better yet, closer to what you are meant to be. For sure I need time to myself to reflect on this beautiful life and reconnect with myself and it also has a time frame :).

        Freedom to me, it's to have peace in my heart when at night, I lay when there is no more light. Everything you give to the world is an overflow of the happenings in your heart. There are several level of freedom going from financial to psychological and the extent of that freedom is totally up to us. As they say "Your freedom stops where your neighbor's start. "
We all need our space, true. You have friends close to your heart and the time will come for them to fly away while you are still trying to hold to those thoughts you've shared and cherished. Freedom for me will come from letting go of those thoughts and of those friends as well in the process. Their season in your life has passed so either they will stay around for later on or they will be gone forever.
       You can't really claim loneliness at that point because when leaving you, they give you room for improvement and it makes me think of  a "work out"(workout). So when you are working out you put your body through training and tests and at the end you have muscle soreness. I believe it is caused by lacerations in the muscle tissues which requires rest for a better recovery and then you will get results in growth of muscle mass. yay!!!
When people leave it feels the same way and recovery is needed, I hope the analogy makes sense. During that stage you  will keep walking but at the end your heart grows with more love to give but no one to receive it that's when loneliness hits you. Truth is, we all know that it hurts....
  
          For me, growing up with a lot of people around me, I've learned to give and love others wholly without pretense so being alone can be challenging (not talking about romantic relationships but in general). When it comes to freedom, I believe to be free at most levels( but financial) and I enjoy life :). I let my freedom sometimes be impaired by my surroundings and loneliness kick me down. It is unhealthy for sure because of the stress it makes you put on yourself for no reason......Let it go ..haha !!!
 I say this but I do have trouble applying it, YES I admit, not to perfection nor to greatness but, to being a piece of Art in the process of being perfected. I'm still growing and it's not easy at all.
           That being said, I believe that loneliness is not freedom but just a step towards it. What you do with it determines what tomorrow holds for you. I know some people who chose loneliness and call it freedom and that's not really good because I'm sure in the original design we were not meant to be alone but to share ourselves with the world and bring joy one act of random kindness and love at a time.
Freedom is not about being out of prison, being able to do whatever you want or not taking orders, I believe it's a state of mind connected to a loving heart holding who we are, defining our being (but not necessarily the "real" us since people can be fake).
        
          Being free it's being yourself in your entirety whether you open up to others or hold back is up to you.
To me, it's not allowing yourself to be controlled nor influenced by others, and the fact is that your freedom is in your hands so........
                                 It is all up to you, you can make life beautiful or
                                                          let the world make it painful :)
                                                                                                                                            Julien

2 comments:

  1. I myself do not like loneliness... I want to be surrounded by people, even though I know one day they might go away from me and my life. It is the love of the moment that matters to me the most, and there's no reason for me not to cherish it.

    I like what you have, keep it going! :)

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